holding on

When you sleep, the only messages that creep from the part of you that speaks are the words that i am a gentle creature. From your brow to your chin, your confession is that we are lonely. If we could only escape to the memories that take precious moments like these from a youthful heart. I would hold you, and thank you for being everything that makes you a blessing and see you for who you truly are.When what was, rings louder than what is. I doubt there ever will be space for a new star And all of the cosmos, we focus on what costs most. Memories of pain and a new scar Well it's to those stars and underneath you the distance these loving arms would reach when you think I'm hard to find in a world without options you suddenly stopped by a stranger And find later that those arms are mine in a better time and place a freather of divine grace fades into white parades of free birds. Defined within ther chase, i find that ive been waiting my whole life just to say these words...

I'm on your side
Dark days, cold nights
This is what we're going through
I'll Keep holding on
It'll be alright

see, you can admire the flower
But understand, you dealing with a woman and a higher power
And my father in Heaven must've gave her the Earth
Cause the money don't impress her, yo she know what she's worth
And she knows rebirth, and she can feel it
Went through too much hurt to conceal it
It's not what she say, it's the way she reveals it
And how the world wanna steal it
That spirit in which her body's a home to
Sorry world, she's outgrown you
Outta the gates to the wild blue
Sky's too great, she gotta escape, fly through
With a smile to kinda remind you
You gotta look ahead and not behind you
She said staring at the sun won't blind you
It's just a lie used by the world to confine you
But I know a place they won't find you
And if you believe, you can fly like I do
Absolutely beautiful, the type that make you feel unsuitable
She's uncommon, ain't nothing about her usual

Out Of Sight, But Never Out Of Mind.

Some say that love changes and best friends became strangers. They say out of sigh out of mind, but you aint out of mind even if we never speak, until our next lifetime... I'll miss you.

Thinking Of You.

It's starting to pull me under I can feel it beneath my feet, the last few months have passed so slowly and it's been so long since I've seen you smile, I'm to afraid to ask what's wrong so I sit and stare frustrated digging my nails in to my palms, I never wanted you to see me like that, bloodshot eyes and bleeding fists speechless love a new years wish, I never wanted you to see my reenact those days I threw away, stuttered screams from a distant voice I followed you all the way to your front door, no words could take the pain from your eyes like a knife throught the heart I'll be sleeping alone tonight, and when I wake up you won't see me again you won't have to worry about me anymore, I'm sorry for all the times I fucked up I'm sorry for every time I let you down, you always said it was hard to talk and I guess it always was, but it still feels the same I still feel the same the only difference is you're not there, I brought this on myself, you're not there, when I need you the most, you're not there, and I can't stop thinking of you

Heartless

For once my eyes are open to you, and everything you've said. For once your web of lifes is in the open. I gave you everything I had, until I had nothing left. And still you act as if I'm just a burden. I'm finally letting go. Stay silent at least for now, and let me move on. Because I'm done playing games with my heart. I've been around the world and back for you, and now its time to choose. I've been swallowed by this wreck called your life, I'm damaged from the inside, I've been broken. Don't threaten me with what you think I feel because if you could read my mind you'd be in tears. I'm sick of your excuses you hold above me. I've finally come to terms with what I am, I'm nothing in your eyes. I'm merely living a dream. And ill close my eyes and ill dream of a better time when ill finally leave the past and be happy on my own. I've done all I can and still I'm the one cast aside. All I ever wanted was to be the one to wipe the tears of your eyes, but I guess ill play second best to a world that never cared about you. You'll never understand you'll always just be another pretty face. You tell me that you care, and then you run straight back to him. I can hear your voice of treason from a mile away. You never did know how to whisper. You never did know how to the tell the truth....

Kiss That Motherfucker Goodnight

Say this is jealousy that I’m feeling well then I’m fine with that.You have a certain characteristic that gives you the means to not feel a fucking thing for anyone that isn’t you. Now tell me you’re not fucking selfish.For every kind hearted word that I spoke to you. I beg I could take back every syllable you ripped from my mouth as I screamed for you to understand. What it feels like to not be as important to someone as they are to you. Well I’ve been on both ends and my lesson was learned. So I tell the stories of collapsed lungs so maybe the fortunate could get a fighting chance to just cut and fucking run. Fuck saying the right things- I’m sick of being your crutch. I will never pick you up again. Don’t show me that face, you know the one that I’m talking about. You will never get under my skin again. Not another word. Not sorry for shit...
I’m leaving you breathless...broken...alive...alive...

Shades Of Grey.

This life is unpredictable, no limits or restrictions
it's filled with opportunities and filled with addictions
so much joy, yet so much affliction
pain and oppression, shame and conviction
so much we see yet, so much we're missing
so much to change and so much we're fixing
faith and forgiveness, chaos destruction
poverty, paychecks, starving children and corporate lunches
love, peace, war, hate and hunger
fall, winter, spring, summer, sunshine and thunder
I'm going under, now I'm rising
how much time is left? There's no rewinding
sometimes even the light can seem blinding
I wash my thoughts in blood to keep my mind clean
I don't have everything I want
I've always had everything I needed everything hasn't always went how I planned it
but I wouldn't change who I am even if you offered me a mansion
just existing is enough, just living
I'll do my best to make the right decisions
until the day heaven takes me away
I'm gonna make the most of life even with the Shades of Grey